I have googled on Ryan’s computer for hours,reading as much as I can about each aspect of the fight with alzheimer’s. I have watched almost 100 YouTube clips. I have spoken with people that work in each area listed in the title block of this post. I have formulated my own feelings about what is going on and what I can really help with. This has really changed me. It has made me feel very serious. I thought I was pretty serious before, but I feel different now. I cannot waste all of the knowledge God has sent my way. I cannot waste my feelings grown out of listening to the feelings of the hundreds of people I have talked to. I feel so honored doing this. It is a real honor to me. Having what I feel is a purpose, a real purpose for being on this earth, is the best feeling I have ever felt. After I returned from Monterey, California, I felt for awhile like someone owed me something. I do not any more. I feel like I am helping with something. I feel a purpose. I do not ever want anything for what I am doing. That would be horrible to me. This is just me, it is how I feel. I do not want any thanks anymore. This is such an honor. I am the luckiest man on this planet. I have purpose and I feel like I have God’s blessing.
I have had quite a few people during this last 27 months of this quest, mention that they wish they could do something like what I am doing, instead of working. I try to quickly and in a nice manner tell them that I worked from age 16 to age 62, before I did any of this. I tell them I served in the military and helped raise two children, before I did any of this.
I am still learning and will continue to. I thank God several times a day for my life. I do want God to look at me and say or think, this man sure tried to use all of the stuff I gave him.